Have had some interesting topics come up lately that thrust me into some very deep thinking.

(Clare Lynn – Interactive Light Art Photography – exquisite perceptions of light.)

My last post was about letting go and letting life! Well as it turns out since that post I have had the pretty little house I talked about fall out of my reach, the fat cat is going back to his owner who returned 1 and 1/2 years early from Thailand. I feel good! I have three jobs… summer looks good for paying off some debts. I’m beginning to think of how I want to shape my future. Not letting go of letting life… just giving life a direction and see where it ends up. Part of me wants to change up life’s direction every few years so that I don’t wake up someday mired down in one limited life experience.

Someone recently passed a thought past me that brought about a flood of insights. One of the things I’ve always fought against in life was being stereotyped. Shoved into a category. So when it comes to common thought on any one topic I generally sit outside the bucket or find myself jumping from one bucket of ideals to another. My beliefs are broad and varied and change with any number of new input.

It hit me today that because of my broad vista manner of viewing the world, I am free-er than most people that I know. I try sometimes to impart this freedom to those who I care about only to be faced with stone walls of rejection. I’ve had to learn to grasp onto my own joy – live it fully and not get weighed down by others choice to not join me.

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Everyday I become more and more the butterfly girl of my youth. Care none, live with glee and passion. Always there for those who seek or need. I’m not though, willing to be a crutch.

I’m an empath have been my whole life… I learn via osmosis. I communicate everywhere I can silently and with whoever I can silently. I use to think it a handicap as in conversations I’m not the best linguist. But that would mean fitting into one of those buckets, wouldn’t it? Not for me! To let go of my inherent ability to feel and see the nature of others around me via my innate sense would be losing myself. Would be my life’s worst tragedy.

Because of my many bucket broad vista, adventurous, empathic nature, I avoid controversy, and other stressful situations. I don’t see a need for putting myself through an unpleasant experience. It was suggested to me that much could be gleaned from the interactive nature of controversy. That is very true. As an observer though with no agenda one can learn just as much and maybe accept more of what is being shared due to being open. As opposed to being defensive of ones own ideals.

All of a sudden I’m just one very happy girl with a very bright future… accepting who I am, snuggling up with me…

I wish for everyone that they find in their own unique way that place in their own unique being that brings so much joy and pleasure to be themselves.

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