I thought I had been going through a sort of death and rebirth over the past few years. Going back through this blog its apparent the struggle of birth with all its discomfort, and like a baby, I just don’t want to look back upon it anymore. I have some ideas for the future. Ive thought a lot about just writing snippets on gratitude, or short notes on moving forward, something positive or rewarding. Just doesn’t feel right in this venue. Too many memories on this blog of how I got here.
I’m mulling over the idea of a new blog to commemorate not just having been reborn, but more importantly that I’m living my new life and about to take off and soar.
I have a new dog, a standard chocolate poodle named Persia. She is a delightful upbeat addition to my life. I’m already learning so much from her. She’s the best company ever!
I’m very close to owning my canoe, only a few more payments, and Persia and I will be out on the water this summer. Finally! Somewhere back in this blog I discuss what being out on water would mean to me. Well I’m almost there(!), and I have the greatest companion ever in Persia to share it with.
A beautiful Spanish mustang mare is coming to live with me in a few months, Her name is MP Cinnamon Spice.
She is a bay daughter of Ghost Warrior, and out of Sequoya’s Creek Shawnee. I wont be owning Cinnamon, at least not up front. I will be leasing her for two years with a goal of training her and getting a foal from her. With the decision to lease Cinnamon, my life feels alive and full again.
Some crucial realizations have come to me the past few months. For one, I am unable to walk away from my horse passion. Its just what makes me tick. My desires have not changed. Ive tried to open my heart, mind and soul to other possibilities, but they wain and pale to the machine that drives my love of horses. Among those realizations I’ve been having are, I want a place with pasture, an age old dream, and that I love genetics. I love at least the dream of breeding horses. I’m going to breed I think. Maybe not on any real kind of scale, but I have ideas and direction again. Also my eyes have been opened to coverups, lies and unspoken suspicions. I wont be fooled so easily again. Mistakes made were made at a price I refuse to pay again. I will learn from them and turn them into positive guidelines for a successful future.
Its scary to try this again. But I’m up for it!
So I’ll leave The Pony Expression for now as it is. Wow, that conjured up some emotion.
See ya around. Hopefully you come along on my next journey and share in the exhilaration of it with me. You’ll have to come along if you want to know what the rest of the story is….
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